Secretcorner81

I woke up again from a memory of despair.Inside the timeline, my child that I carried day and night, I saw down the memories carrying so much pain. I knew I was still stuck inside time , I raise an eye to the sky, and pray.  I ask the lord to vanish all the sorrow. Life became a heavy burden to carry. Walking alone again was unbearable. Alone, my arms ache of the loss, there where a child used to lay, the pain inside my eyes grew like never I thought it would be easy,asked the lord to make me forget, to put me in amnesia, to delete all from my memory, so that my brain hold nothing except 0 and 1. I knew this was impossible, I knew that I had to learn how to forget, to fight the feeling, to fight her sight, to struggle my fights to fall a sleep. Even sleeping became hard to when I used to sleep for hours, now i only fall asleep for 3 minutes and wake up in dismay. I look up again to the ceiling, trying to figure out another positive scenorio, but again i retur...

Today, I wokeup at the sound of her memories. Somewhere deep inside the books of yesterday. She drew a heart and a house, and built a fancy car. She said she will build me a house, she wanted to be an architect. Her dreams were drawn on her windows, wokeup everyday with a glim in her eyes "Yesterday was her memorial, she left a house, and left her dolls with dismay. I still feel her, hear her giggles down the aisles. She was still there fetching for her rollerblades, and notebooks." I continue down the aisles, I walk this time with care. I traced my tired looking hands. Everything looks so blare. The place is aching with grey, nothing left like before. The memories of yesterday were still so flare. Down the memory lane she was still playing her dolls a mommy and a big family. She was grand, even when she played at days  One year back I woke up from a nightmare to the scent of her blood and broken jawline. She was still there planting down her future....