Only when I am alone * ~

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I was alone when I started dreaming of you, filled with pain.

I  was looking up the world from my little dark room. Yesterday was buried and dead, or I thought so! and I dreamet, endlessly~

You came with no bell attached to you, I woke up then.. shook off all the dust .."remembered to tidy my bed, and i did" or maybe not so.. I ran to you with hopes, for yesterday to be better! to re-write it. to clear it out!



And i started sketching my dreams, hoped for some light to fill in. And I started swaying with the rhythm, I colored all the blues of my old wounds! " Ships are meant to sail...!

Love is not only a dream or embodied in dreams. Love is reality filled with ardency! Love is brave when it's meant to be, with the right buddies!!

Love is big enough to speak only the truth, and never shy away of our daily rut! Love can bring us back to life, push us to the top ..!

Love can be a cure, but never an ill- Love is light and not dark !!



And I dreamet, building bridges over the ocean and seas..and I knew you were with me,shining a blinding spot for you and me, and I dreamet!

Through the doors you opened,close inside of me, the light you see! and I dreamet! Untill one day, when all dreams became a nightmare of horror and despair. of blood filling my rooms, of wounds opened so deep and ugly.. of daggers engraved inside my rivers of truth.. Tears were filling my life, never departing my land, i see. Rivers overflooding!! I see me inside the darkness trying to run but cant! my legs were so heavy, i confined!

Something must bring life to me, something must be true.. and I think I can see the light, even if I lose.. I will win again..

I repent this time, I ve closed up a window for sun... cause all i see now is shadow !!





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