All I remember ! ~

I think I saw you somewhere- that i cant recall. I wonder, I felt this before- but I cant remember when, and I wonder. I traced a finger on my memory- I traced my life back ,memories are built from scents and melodies. Memories that look so young and fair. I think, I saw you when there were so many things to share, I saw you when hopes were so wonderfull! - and I wondered!


I was there- thats what I can recall. I was there with so many things to share- I was there when my heart was so free- I was there when my heart never knew its own worries ..thats what I recall. I stood there for so many days, maybe years, or maybe even one day- but I recalled I spared so much of my patience. I stood with hope,courage,love and so much giving. I stood and hope was filling my heart- filling my sound of sanity-and I wondered.


I waited, so many times- with hope everything will become better. I think, i was there counting down- so busy counting down,wearing my patience before my pride-forgiving when I was supposed to take a stand. I waited with hope for my love to be shared and respected. I hoped one day I will see devotion , in return- and I wondered.


I remembered, I fetched for a pen to write something- and I got tired because I couldnt find it, so instead I lay there and fell asleep! I remember, I slept for hours, covered inside so many layers- so many truth- so many wakeup call- and I remembed- when I woke up, my heart was aching- my life was draining- and my face was so pale..!

I dragged my feet on to the floor, and walked to the window- I remember I had a prayer- I started praying with passion- and I started crying with pain- I couldnt stop- it was so heavy, this feeling- was so heavy- was so sinister- was so devilish. I remembered I was crying for hours, pain started to grew so much bigger- and I couldnt stop that- that was for sure all i remember!