Dear Diary!

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Dear Diary:

He thinks, I dont care- but I do. He thinks I dont love him- but I do. I dont know what to say, or do- I dont know where to go or whom to talk to .. Please diary, tell me what to do!


I think I ve been over writing since then- I am writing with no direction, just for the sake of release ! I am haunted by chaos- emotions turmoil, mainly, I am in pain!

I surrender to pain so many times- and find myself diving in a deep sleep-  swiming with my unconscious mind- I run in circles- I am lost

I want to write, endlessly- with no direction or goal or even spirit.. Just drafting my own choas on a piece of paper that I find anywhere- even at the bottom of the sea..!

I try to prove it- but I fail- and I wonder in endless circles of chaos. I shiver, I stammer- and finds no end.. why this pain dont settle- dont go away" I scream"

I cant stop, or maybe cant find reasons for me to stop.. I said I am not going to write, or even think or maybe rewind back or even listen to the same music.

I find myself again and again- falling in circles- of chaos~!

Oh god, here I pray for you to ease my pain- Oh god, here I pray to send so much light and love for those I love and care. Please god- here I pray to heal the wounds of yesterday!

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