Maybe a little bit different !

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Today, I am different.. maybe a little wiser.. a little quieter.. a little of some sort of difference that made me look into things almost, differently

Its part of life, a cycle of non-stop evolution. I have certainely learned through pain quite alot, I ve  learned to be in moderation.. to be in the middle.. to watch before reacting.. cause in the end nothing really matters... all shatters down into a mess, but always remember you ve got yourself in the end- so keep yourself in tact of reality.. of the truth and of your path

Life expand inside us, we grasp reality in a different way... some rebel but in the end they discover they ve lost in so many ways... cause "HASTE will always make WASTE" and some wait for destiney to correct all their mess, and others push their good deeds to reap only the good..

For me, I was the quiet one, maybe a little bit ideal in my dealings or even hopes and expectation.. I thought "Mother" taught me always to be the good, the kind.. and the lovely..., life taught me so many things.. that nothing seems the reality, only time reveal! The funny thing my truth set me on troubles so many times...

Then, I realised that only the kind ones get hurt the most cause they have given everything from their heart... maybe they expected some kindess in return but all they got is just alot of hurt, lies and deception... and they were shocked.. The amazing part they ve denied their hurt to set the boat sailing again- they never realized that water was in the boat, already.. and instead of healing the situation they were only hurting themselves!

And you keep on getting hurt until your shell hardens and your heart becomes so cold... and you retreat and escape every situation, people, or whatever to protect the heart from all the choas...

And I wondered, will I be able to find someone who is " as kind, as true... and as loving as me

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