Just be Beautiful~

She drew a line on the papers she held at hand. She hid her letters from the prying eyes. A straight line of where she will land into the space she has dreamt to be. Away and yet so attached. Every string was tangling her thoughts, every corner was attached with a memory. She had hopes to unleash all, and find another space to start anew.


At four, her mother taught her how to look into the mirror and admiringly snaps at everyone else. Mother taught her that she was the only important person, and everyone else doesnt count. She taught her how to be proud, prideful and so conceited. She taught her how to dress elegantly and admire her figure on the reflection of everything, especially eyes!


She fought her place in nowhere land, she was arrogant, aggressive and so much glamorous. She hanged everyone . Basically, enemies existed only inside her head.

At six, she managed to learn how to blow her birthday's ballons. Mother was keen to teach her everything, so that when the time comes, her girl will be the best at everything. With every little step she took, something giant grew inside, and without the knowledge of her mother, she kept that a secret!

She grew aggressively insane, when something goes against her plan. Everyone and everything was supposed to adhere to the rules of the plan. Lines she had drew were straight , and those also not to be crossed or erased. And with everyday, something horrible grew inside her, that she always managed to conceal from the rest!

At 12, she grew elegantly into a beautiful girl, she had all the grace, wit and charm. Mother polished her shape with advice, and  managed to pump her ego, endlessly! She was full of herself. Amazingly bright and smooth in her intellecut. She was snobbish,irascible and aggressive in her way, which brought happiness into the mother's heart. Every little action her daughter has shown took an affirmation from mother to continue~ and so she did!

She started drawing so many arrows, scribbled thoughts, chaos was filling all the white spaces. Every little corner around was humiliated with a catastrophe~ things she managed to conceal, and many others she couldnt~ with time, every shameful act she had done and managed to erase and wipped underneath the carpet- became a huge monster!
A monster she has hid inside herself. For years, the monster was growing little by little, and with no fault, managed to become so much big and ugly!

At that point, she stood infront of her reflection and screamed " God - how can this be so ugly- when all mother has taught was to be beautiful!

P.S: Be careful what you feed your child - you only reap what you sow!