"Love is a hole in the heart#1

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It started one dark night. Maria was suffering from a broken heart.She was lifeless, helpless and completely hopeless.She thought time have stopped when she had lost it all. Life's moments seemed so faraway. She wondered where was this hidding all.

"I was  happy once.  Daddy's favorite girl, rich, lucky and above all got the whole world in my hands,She said!

She met him inside her darkness- she couldnt recall the time or even the month. But she knew another chapter is yet to begin. Though, this time she has lost her compass. She knew deep down she was lost. And when you are lost you tend to hold on to anyone just to get out to the shore.

She knew that from now on- Maria is  totally a different person. She was so heavy- carrying bags of memories and a heavy burden on her shoulders. She slouch when she walks. She dress all in black. And  find excuses to stay alone for so many hours- even days. Maria stopped talking to anyone- even her mother~



Maria stretched her heart beyond its limit .. she gave her light to everyone.. Maria wanted to be the Mother of all. Not until  time stroke her by, she found herself broken and deceived by everyone .. Maria couldnt realise whats true- and whats not!


"LOVE IS A HOLE IN THE HEART"-  thats what she has written aside.


"And then she met him- when her heart was filled with pain, fear and loss~ She met him when life became so much bitter~ She met him when life became a lifeless track in her eyes" ~


P.S : Stop giving  nor pushing yourself beyond your limit, cause once you loose yourself- nothing else can be claimed. Above all- Love yourself first- you deserve to be loved and cared after..

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