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I was alone when I started dreaming of you, filled with pain. I  was looking up the world from my little dark room. Yesterday was buried and dead, or I thought so! and I dreamet, endlessly~ You came with no bell attached to you, I woke up then.. shook off all the dust .."remembered to tidy my bed, and i did" or maybe not so.. I ran to you with hopes, for yesterday to be better! to re-write it. to clear it out! And i started sketching my dreams, hoped for some light to fill in. And I started swaying with the rhythm, I colored all the blues of my old wounds! " Ships are meant to sail...! Love is not only a dream or embodied in dreams. Love is reality filled with ardency! Love is brave when it's meant to be, with the right buddies!! Love is big enough to speak only the truth, and never shy away of our daily rut! Love can bring us back to life, push us to the top ..! Love can be a cure, but never an ill- Love is light and not dark !! And I dream...

I think I have loved when my heart grew bigger, or maybe not. For me love was not measured by age, I started that 7 years ago. At then, I had dream bubbles, life was colored in pink all the time. Love was free, love was pure, love was all I have seeked at my days. But I have loved, and never shared it until now. Maybe, for me it was not love, it was a pure fantasy of love. The things I have seen in Cinderlla,sleeping beauty and Aladdin. Or maye so, I have dreamet.Cause at that time, i was free floating with my bubbles, it was then when I realised that real life is a total drift! It was then when I realised  it was my only sin!! And I have dreamet, and I have conveyed my truth that love is the only way. I got so many people bursting my bubbles, discoloring my fantasies., destroying all the trend ~ I was dicouraged so many times, or I felt the opposite, to feel the abundance in my search and beliefs! And I floated, and I convicted that "one day I will,one day I will" o...

I sat there, so many moons ago, I think I was there, I was breathing so deeply, feeling every bit of it...I dont remember exactly what I was feeling then! but I recalled one thing, one simple thing that I kept searching the world for! Maybe, it was a dream, or maybe not. But I knew I was trying so much- so much that my soul became so tried and in pain. I knew that, what i hoped for will make me ill- ill to death- and no one then will make me whole- except me! And this day will be on the day I decide to let go of all my burdens!!!  

I wrote something a long ago, when there were so many things to talk about. But I guess, my words never reached, they fell out of place, landed no where.. I never figuered out my place back then- I guess, I was transending into nowhere-illusioned, maybe floating!! I searched, so many times for answers. For a real face to show the truth, all i heared was nothing but the rustling wind, in my land wind visit with chaos, it rattle all places, fill all the void with dust, I can see nothing at that time- I only see swirling cyclone of sands traveling around.. I then sketched a lonely letter on a bare white paper, I wiped away all the dust that resides on the surface- most of the spaces were swallon and some of them were invaded enermously with  dust. I think, i stayed there wiping the dust and sketching a letter, but the letter never found a place! The place that was meant to be, maybe a place where we all feel to be the right one for the right time. Something that were...

Life is a blink of seconds. A 5 minutes track playing at the back of our minds. We are taken by moments,changed by events, and crushed by realities. What  render in our hearts are those who made us see reality in different forms,those who altered us to become better, and never demand anything in returns. The funny part of this all is that we are just passing through, we are not immortals, never will be, might be our good doings, or the memories we leave on people's life.      When we were kids, we had moments of fun, and we thought this will last forever.Then we grew up, and our hearts broke into two. We had dreams, so much of it, we had hopes stretched out in every step we had taken. Though, we never lost the sight, we kept on a flare burning within, cause thats what life is all about. To never loose sight..! We are what we make out of our moments, choose that to be good, cause that will last! P.S: one day you will not be around to ...

We all need to heal at certain stage in our life. We all need time to understand something that has happened in the past. Time will only heal what we avail space to. Enough space should be given to absorb the healing power. During the early step, you could face uncomfortable feelings of the past, upheavel energy that suffocate you, and more memory to deal with. Coming face to face with reality is our first remedy. When we let the door ajar for these miracles to cripple in and give them place to change us, healing happens. I mean, what is healing, without pain? Is nothing, cause everything we learn and understand and never forgets is through our painful journey. We have stepped so many times on the truth. Our gut feelings has been in diguise, thats because we overstepped on truth callings and ignored the wisdom voice and seldom we understood that. So, in particular, life is a step by step healing journey, where we learn,understand, heals and become whole through our lessons.. ...

So, I was thinking of this for a while. Reaching perfectionism, is there anything like that around! yeah, i guess its a word in everyone's mouth. How to seek Perfection, is what we read, see and hear from everyone, even media. And its quite hectic and domineering, cause it keeps us on the edge, and self evaluating. I guess at a certain age i was seeking that, cause i though it was so self-accomplished, and reaching satisfaction! And I havent been wrong, right in the beginning i was feeling so energetic and self-righteous defending my own values on that. And i was so taken by the fact of competing to be one, and reaching the top and maintaining that. But I guess i wasnt that right when i reached midway the game, i felt very much tired. I was like competing with my own demons, my only job is to measure and ask myself  million questions before reaching an end . And I was falling into self-pitty whenever i wanted a solution, maybe an end, or even an evaluation. It took me ages to...